I came across these TED talks by Brené Brown a while ago, and just loved what she had to say.
This quote resonated with me a lot :
“As much as I would be frustrated about not being able to get my work out to the world, there was a part of me that was working very hard to engineer staying small, staying right under the radar.”
and of course her ultimate statement:
“Vulnerability is not weakness, it is our most accurate measurement of courage”
I hope you take the time to watch these two videos, and join in the conversation in the comments below.
An Excerpt From “Silence and Stillness” By Eckhart Tolle:Look at a tree, a flower, a plant. Let your awareness rest upon it. How still they are, how deeply rooted in Being. Allow nature to teach you stillness. When you look at a tree and perceive its stillness, you become still yourself. You connect with it at a very deep level. You feel a oneness with whatever you perceive in and through stillness. Feeling the oneness of yourself with all things is true love.
To celebrate World Poetry Day today, I give you the following poem. I hope you enjoy 🙂
IdeaI do not like the idea Of loving the idea of you It is you, is it not That I love Not in love with ideas thereof Or you in my imagination Who I will create What you will be Is pleasing to me It cannot be this idea I seek For you try me You make me feel weak No not the idea of you But all that I saw and I knew And I felt Yes look there is it Not in my mind A feeling, no notion to grind A knowing and comfortable, nice Not ideas that make me think twice A feeling I worry I’ll lose If I imagine ideas of you When I long for your presence to hold And I miss you and lie in the cold Of rejection and fright Then all I am left with in slight Are ideas that run through my mind To keep what I feel in this bind To feed me and keep you alive In absence ideas survive And outlines of moments we knew Become an idea of you
When I was a young girl, I had all these plans that I would have everything I ever dreamed of in my life by the age of 25. I have no idea where I came up with that number, or on what basis I made this decision, but I do know that when I reached that age, the fact that this was not the case bothered me a lot. I was frustrated, and unclear as to why things were not working out “as planned”.
I know a lot of people struggle in life with figuring out what they want to do, but for me, it was very obvious. I have always wanted to be a successful musician, to work at what I love every day, and yes, to receive a certain amount of recognition. For many years in my late twenties, I felt that I must have missed the boat, and during a time when I felt very tired of trying, I took a detour in my life that brought many challenging experiences my way. There are more times than I care to mention when I wish I had made a different choice, but that’s only when I weigh it up against “my plan”. When viewed away from this naive expectation, I really value the amazing experiences I had, the fantastic people I met, the maturity I developed, and the insight into a much larger view of life that I ultimately gained.
What I’ve learned in these subsequent years, is the famous truth John Lennon sang of:
“Life Is What Happens To You When You’re Busy Making Other Plans”.
I’ve also learned just how important choice is, and decision, and self-discipline. But most importantly I’ve learned the importance of persistence and of never giving up, or losing faith. I don’t write these words lightly, or mean to sound trite, because this has been a very real experience for me, and at times I still struggle to make peace with where I am today. To quote a line from my song Fly Away:
“I had to live the story to be where I am”
So, as much as I know it is a futile exercise to resist what-is, there are times I do. There are times I feel like a failure, wonder where I went wrong, and become lost in regret. Sometimes there are lots of tears. But I feel too, that I’ve become a much stronger person, and a much more compassionate person, and those qualities are of such immense value to me.
Perspective is such an interesting thing, and now I can look at things from many different angles, and question why I approach things the way I do. I can stretch my thinking in all directions, and be open to things I might never have even considered. I feel that life is a celebration, whether it fits in with some idea of what I think my life should be or not, and I know that nothing is more important than feeling happy, enjoying life, being kind, and living completely in the moment, no matter what it is I’m doing.
For me, maturity means taking responsibility for my choices, and not giving credence to my “failed plan”. it means being extremely thankful for everything in my life, and being able to accept, and love the road I’m on in all its diversity. It’s a long road, that’s for sure, but one filled with the beautiful colours and richness of life. I am so happy to be doing what I love, to be able to share my music and thoughts with all of you, and to know that in these moments creation is being served.
I’ll leave you with some lyrics from my song See Me Now:
“You, you see me now
But I have woke and shouted
How could I have ended up in this place
You, you see me now
But I have wandered far from where I started out
Hoping to find some grace”
Last night I performed at Hemingways Lounge Bar in Wimbledon Village. (http://www.hemingwaysbar.co.uk).
My set included three songs I don’t usually perform publicly. I wanted to step outside my comfort zone and see how they were received. One song in particular – Cathy’s Song – is a real oldie and one I get so much enjoyment from performing! I wrote it when I was only nineteen, which is a long time ago now…
The song is about a friend of mine from my College days who was experiencing unrequited love with her male friend. While he had no idea she felt this way, he would visit her every day and share his feelings about his recent breakup. He still hoped he would get back together with his ex.
Unfortunately my friend had this young man high on a pedestal, and she was in terrible angst about the entire state of affairs 😉 so I wrote this song as a sort-of parody, with the intention of having her view the situation in a less-serious light. Sometimes we all need a change in perspective, and I have always found laughter to be THE best medicine!
I spoke with a patron of Hemingways afterwards who said he really liked the song; I was so pleased to have included it in the set! It’s always wonderful to know that I’ve struck a chord with another person, makes it all worth while….